Trust God?

A 4-year-old boy walks along a bumpy road suddenly trips and falls, he starts bawling, like any child who's fallen down would do. The next thing you see is his daddy in his steadfast footsteps moving to his child, to pick him up from the fall.

You know, I have no idea why I just wrote that analogy. I'm quite grossed out by it because it doesn't speak anything about what I wanna blog about, that is trusting in God. Or does it?

I'm thinking, I'm like that child going my own way, doing my own thing and God allows me to do what I want because He loves me and values my freewill.

Yet He is always within a cry away even when you are rebellious, always in step behind you ready to receive you whenever you realise that you need Him. How wonderful His love for us! How undeserving we are! How marvelous His grace!

(How I wish that all my loved ones could realise that we need God so much and embrace Him)

Ah, but I digress... You see God allows us to fall, allows us to go through pains so we realise what's good for us, I'm no expert in that area you see, I am only 20-years-old! But the Word of God says in Proverbs 3:5-6 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.

If we decide to trust in ourselves we'll not be travelling through straight paths, taking detours and winding roads perhaps never to reach our destination/destiny.

Right now I'm in this stage where I fear the unknown so much! Yet in a conversation with Sharon earlier I was reminded that God is not even the unknown, He is way above that, He created time, He knows the future and yet this God that is so Awesome in His Power chose to have a relationship with me.

He sent His only Son to die for me!

Imagine that You are transformed into a snail to and then burnt with salt to die for the sins of the snails of the world!

Yet that analogy in itself is does not convey the humility of Jesus' ministry and atonement! because God's Highness could never be compared to anyone else's superiority over anything, much less compared to Man!

God is so wonderful, you know?

And just because the Word of God says that I should trust in Him then I will, in my darnest, so help me God! In my most rotten situations I must trust Him, why? Because the Word of God says so!

Don't allow my heart to be hardened LORD! I wanna learn to lean on You..

My Thoughts on the Retreat

Since everyone is talking about their own retreat experiences, I'll jump into the bandwagon and post some thoughts & ramblings too!

- Greatly encouraged to see many youths, in particular Jon Ng and Joey being ministered to by God in His special ways, I know God has touched their lives and now for the renewal of their minds! Pray that God will keep the desire in our hearts for Him to grow more & more!

I don't know Jon well but this guy has a strong mind and I believe the Lord can use him mightily if he'll just allow God to!

The Lord will be able to use all of us if we'll only allow Him to! And Joey, my dear brother, I'm glad you're back on track, like you said to me after the youth camp, keep the burning embers as they should be, burning!

- Learned to work in a camp committee, it's my first time working in an event as in running the show and all that, but these people are the best! I love this comm, very helpful all of them! I felt inadequate but that's my problem and I'll still have youth camp to prove myself wrong! Here's a big thank you to the committee! Thaaaannkk yoooou!

- God's strength is made perfect in my weaknesses! You see for most of the first few days I was relying on my own strength, going about each day on my own batteries... but I was out of energy by the end of the 2nd last day and finally brokedown in the afternoon and from there I relied on God all the way...

After getting myself together I was ready to ask that my following tasks be removed from me so I could rest, but nope, God had other plans and I got to help Kun Jie with his spiritual direction and I got to know him better and who knows I might get to know him even better and maybe I'll get my first mentee, O I dunno...

Big thank you to my darling girlfriend, SharSharon! Who prayed for me and comforted me when I broke down and getting my brothers Jenn and Joey in to be with me also! Thank you for holding my hand for enouraging me with your words and hugs and other wonderful wonderful actions of affirmation! Thank you love! I love and treasure you!

Thank you brother Jenn for just being around you're a petra! Here when I need support thank you bro for encouragement and prayers and hugs too! More about you later ok? Haha..

And Joey you are so dear to me, I pray that familiarity with you will not breed contempt but more love! We'll shock the world by creating more "scenes", I love you bro! Thank you for affirming me and encouraging once again with prayer, prayer rocks! May God expand your ministry and just use you to speak to the unbelievers in your soccer team!

I then went in faith to play for the prophetic act which was really worship led by the people, Kendice, Joel, Jenn & I prepped about 4 songs and the congregation just took it away after 2 songs! You know I was so glad someone started singing and dreaded it when the song finished, I was worried about what song was next and if I'd be able to play it by ear and all that but I realised I worried for nothing! We went through with the prophetic act without much hiccups but those were but technicalities! What matters the most was that many people were ministered to!

The agenda for that night was clear, God's Spirit moved so mightily not in a hype sorta way, he convicted many hearts that night that we needed to evangelise to everyone! Our families, our friends, the world!

PRAY FOR THE SOCCER TEAM!

- So glad that many young adults are discerning what is being preached from the pulpit, it is my vision that everyone in the church will know the word that departs from the Lord's lips! We must know His word! How powerful it'll be if the pentecoastal church will be grounded to God's word and combine it with the passion and our openess to God's Spirit, there must be a balance of Spirit and Truth, it's not 50% Spirit and 50% Truth, it's 100% Spirit and 100% Truth! Imagine what the church could do!

Yet one thing I am guilty of was that I was too close minded and pride crept into my being so much so that I judge a speaker in my heart, so we must be open to the Spirit yet test all things at the same time, I'm still trying to find a balance. I can't seem to finish this blog post so I'll just post it right now...

Favour!

For it is You who blesses the righteous man, O LORD,You surround him with favor as with a shield. Psalm 5:12

Say it with me brothers and sisters! Favour!

You see just yesterday I was worried about whether I was gonna get my half day leave for the evangelistic gig that's happening on Thursday afternoon. I was worried because I had just come back from Malaysia after 5 days' leave from work.

And lo! I couldn't smell my leave because everyone in my office was edgy and somethings had to be settled and leave was definitely at the bottom of the list of priorities, leave for a Private soldier mind you. Nothing, zilch, I am the lowest ranking thing in the army. (But I'm the Son of the Most High!)

Ok anyway, I was worried right so I mobilised the evangelistic gig band and committee to pray for me with regards to my leave and I told myself with faith that God is in control of the situation and I had this strange peace with me.

Today I came into work and my small boss said yes to me going on half day leave, so yay! That's all right? NO!

I went for lunch and one officer whom I'm working with offered me off to go and do stuff for him! So no need to take leave and use up my leave! I only got 7 days left and I have Youth Camp at the end of the year man.

So instead of half a day leave at my leave's expense I have a "fully paid for (by God)" off! Isn't He amazing? He is the God of big and small things! I feel God is building up my faith and trust in Him in the small things first, Hallelujah to the Lord who who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine! (Eph. 3:20)

Over and above what I can ask for! GLORY TO GOD!

Learning Swordfighting

I got some sorta rhyme going on...

Repent while you can for the Kingdom is at hand.

Heh, anyway I have a Vision, and my dEarEst sHaron pointed it out to me, anyway it's a vision inherited from my mentor.

I desire to see R-age properly equipped with the Word of God, like warriors wielding swords we as people of God must learn how to handle this weapon that's sharper than any double-edged sword properly so that we do not mishandle it and cut other people and ourselves. Because..

Joshua 1:8 says that "This book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it; for then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have success."

2 Timothy 3:16-17 says that "All Scripture is inspired by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, for training in righteousness; so that the man of God may be adequate, equipped for every good work."

2 Peter 1:3 says that "seeing that His divine power has granted to us everything pertaining to life and godliness, through the true knowledge of Him who called us by His own glory and excellence."

Join me.

The Days Draw Nigh

My beloved brother, Jenn sent out an sms to the worship band that he is leading. I think it's really well written and so I'm sharing it, here goes...

Dear band, stay sharp in the Spirit, praying at all times.
Retreat days are drawing nigh, the Lord's presence we can't deny.
The devil's arrows are kept at bay only to strike when you cease to pray.
So stay sharp in the Spirit.

What a beautiful exhortation! Brother Jenn, you rock! Read more of his sense and ramblings here.

Mad Rush

I suddenly feel energised and loved by the committee, CX, Joel and Justin came around me and prayed for me during the retreat meeting, our very last one before the show begins.

Ah so many things to take note!!! But it's all good! Do pray for us if you're reading, so if you read you must pray, ok? Thank you!

I hope this one will be a blast at that God will truly visit us so mightily!